Do you measure your worth by your weight?

Hello Amazing Souls –

I’m writing to you from bed (again.)

Who knew that this year was going to include a thyroid storm and adrenal crash where my thyroid meds stopped working and I started to feel like poop-on-a-cracker?

I thought it was just going to be Italy, and healing, and another book…

But apparently,

I was given this ‘opportunity’ to heal… again.

But wait,

There’s more!

Not only did my energy crash but my weight soared. Up 30 pounds in a matter of a few months.

   Ugh.

Is it just me, or do you ever wish our bodies would pretend everything is all right

Instead of tattling on us and talking to us.

I’m kidding, but I’m not.

But some of us have walked a different path.

People, you know,
Like me.

My mom fed us amazing home-cooked, garden-grown Italian dishes.
But life fed me a diet of visual messages and cues that weren’t so healthy.

• The pornography magazines that were in boxes in the garage…
• The Tv shows where the guy went after the pretty girls…
• And the Cosmopolitans that showed one sexy woman after another.

I remember when I was about 8 or 9 my dad called me to the head of the table. I thought he was going to say something nice about me but instead, he grabbed the inch on my waistline and said,

“What’s this? You need to get rid of this…”

I wasn’t heavy. I was just in that pre-growth spurt stage. But now, I was aware.

Aware that I didn’t measure up.

Adding that experience to some tragic abuses that happened outside of our home in the next few years and my self-worth nose-dived.

I was inadequate and felt it to my core — and all the messages around me seemed to reiterate that truth.

My way of getting control was to drink alcohol and to starve myself.

• At 13 years-old I was popping laxatives and refusing to leave the bathroom until I lost weight.
• I exercised for hours a day and would wake up in the middle of the night to exercise more.
• I barely ate and I weighed myself constantly until I took my 5’ 3” body down to 99 pounds.

I was trim, athletic and curvy before all that. I hadn’t been heavy before and even at 99 pounds I felt fat.

It took years and years for my to work through the story I had told myself and by the time I was 27, I got to face the places that were unfinished in my healing:

I got Hashimoto’s and gained over 100 pounds in a year.

Tipping the scales at 270 pounds was a nightmare. 

I had to look at me, my identity beyond my weight and come to peace with who I was, on the inside, and where I was on the outside.

And recognize that those were two different things — and the latter did NOT determine my worth.

I talked about it a lot in my book “You’re Not Crazy and You’re Not Alone” – about how I lost that weight and the process I went through to regain me.

And now, I’m excited to share with you this summit I’m participating in with Marna Thall in the…

“Rewire Your Brain to Think Thin” Virtual Summit
October 24th thru November 4th

Marna has culled some of the top experts to share their tips on how to shift our brains into seeing us differently and how that bio-hacking the brain can shift our health and our weight.

I’m so excited to share with you my 12 top ways that re-wired my brain on my long journey back home to me.

I always want to shortcut you so that you don’t have to go the long, hard way that I went.

Marna is amazing and our talk was not only powerful but so much fun. You’re going to love her energy and you’re going to love the other experts she’s bringing in.

You know what’s different about where I am now from where I was 30-something years ago when my head was tripping as a young teen — or where I was 20 years ago when I gained the weight from Hashimoto’s?

• I love myself now and am going to love myself through this.
• The punishing days are gone.
• The belief that the measurement of my worth is tied to the size of my hips is gone.
• And the belief  that I’m not good enough until I’m thin enough is gone.

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“You can hate yourself fat,

but the truth is that

you can Love Yourself Thin”

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“Rewire Your Brain to Think Thin” Virtual Summit
October 24th thru November 4th
Join me: http://bit.ly/Love-Yourself-Thin